stressed.

I wish i could say everything is ready for the arrival of my son, but alas. It's not. 

  On top of financial stress... i still have so much cleaning and preparation to complete before I am fully satisfied.

It's noon and we have been up and out of bed since 4am. Sleep is just not going to happen but moving around won't either!!! This part of my pregnancy has been by far the hardest.  

  I really need to organize my life.. it seems that everything is being drained out of me. These next few weeks i would like to relax and just not do anything and even not talk to anyone. The one person who just can not grasp this is my mother. She cares alot which of course is a good thing but right now i just wish she would except that fact that i want to be antisocial. She needs me to text and talk to her everyday and tries to tell me how i should be living. I'm 23 years old and have been on my own for almost 6 years. Why don't parents ever stop being controlling and seem to have that need to act as though their child is still young and dumb? Honestly, i love her but she stresses me out like no body else does. It seems as though i still don't have a say in my own life. I just want to live my own life. Live with loving parents who are there when you need them not overbearing ones that won't leave you alone.